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NEW JOB!

As some of you may have heard, I got a new job and I start on Tuesday! I will be working for a company called Wellsbrooke Premium Home Health Care as a Nursing Assistant/Caregiver.

After the orientation on Tuesday and Wednesday I will be assigned a case or possibly more than one case.

The company works with both Children and Adults who have varying degrees of chronic or terminal illnesses as well as persons in need of social or therapeutic treatment or just assistance with the essential activities of daily living.

Since I am going back to school for Nursing (Pediatrics eventually) this job puts me right where I want to be for success in the future. Wish me Luck!

GOT CONFIDENCE?

We all have times when we don't feel as confident as we probably should, but lately I have been feeling really low.

Way to many people have been testing my confidence level lately and with everything else that has been going on (job searching, money troubles, BOYS etc...) I just don't have it in me anymore.

Hopefully once I start this job I will get my act together and start feeling good about myself again, but right now I seem to be sinking lower and lower everyday and I just can't seem to find anything that truly makes me happy.

Temporary happiness, yes. Like yesterday, I went out with a whole bunch of friends to what we call the River Potluck. This was my first time going with them, and I had more fun than I've had in a really long time. We all brought something to share and ate at a table, in canoes in the middle of the Huron River. The food was excellent, and the company was even better!

Then I came home and realized that it was all over, and I would be going to bed...alone... once again. It's not that it is a bad thing to be alone sometimes, but when you love cuddling as much as I do, and you are already feeling pretty down...all you want to do is have someone close to you all night, to help you from thinking about anything bad.

Anyway, the real point of this post is that I had an audition today and after waking up, getting dressed, doing my hair, and putting on my make-up, I could not bring myself to go to the audition.

It has been 7 years since I have been on stage, and I have been so nervous for the last 2 weeks, preparing for this audition, for a play I was not even super excited about to begin with. Now I'm not even going! What's up with that!!!!

I don't know what's wrong with me lately but I need to get my shit together!!!

Where have all the good friends gone?

I really wish I had more friends locally...

I suppose it is because I went to so many different schools, especially in high school, that I never really got the chance to make any lasting friendships. Most of the people that I went to high school with didn't even live here.

I only spent 6 months in Maine, but those were the friends that I became closest too and of course none of them lived here either.

In fact, my best friend was a girl from Japan, who I have since lost touch with. Hopefully I'll find here again someday.

The friends that I have made most recently live in Michigan, but too far away to just call up for a night out, or else they live in other states too.

Facebook has been a lifesaver for finding some of my old middle school friends and who knows... maybe that will lead to hanging out more. However, right now I just feel so alone.

The friends that I do have here, I really don't have anything in common with anymore.

Don't get me wrong, I LOVE spending time with them, but they are all married or engaged...some have babies, and I am just not at that stage in my life yet.

I may be almost 30, but I am a young 30. I'm still in college,

I still enjoy going to clubs and bars, I just want to have fun!

If I happen to meet a great guy in the process that's even better, but I'm not out there seeking marriage.

I guess I am hoping that by getting back into theater that will open up a whole new world for me again. A world that I have missed for so many years. Only a true thespian can understand what I mean, but the friends you make in the theater almost always stick around.

After all what happens backstage....Stays backstage!

Higher taxes, Bad?

To be honest, I am so torn as to what to do…. In my previous post, I made it sound like I have already made my decision but I’m not really sure I have.

I have so much respect for a woman who supports disabilities, and from what I have read, Palin is also concerned with helping our economy. It seems like she also has a very good understanding of how to do so. The problem is that McCain does not!

Unfortunately, I am unemployed right now, can’t seem to find a job….and our country really needs a change. Obama may be the right choice for that. Although, I am not to thrilled about the idea of higher taxes. As it is right now, I can’t afford the taxes!!!

Without a college degree (I am in school but it will still be a while before I graduate) finding a job at all is tough, and finding one that actually pays well is near impossible!

Taxes only add to making things more expensive.

Perfection? Could be...

I have to be honest...

I really have not been into the election much at all so far.

Our choices were Obama and McCain and I had mixed feelings about both. However, after the announcement that Senator McCain picked his running mate, my vote has been creeping towards his side more and more.

Meet Sarah Palin:

Wife, Mother, Governor and my new hero...

I haven’t really had time to do my research on her, but my Dad and I just had a long talk this afternoon about what an amazing person she really is. Her views on abortion and such are very similar to mine, but we won't even get started on that one!

I was sold, just on that view alone. What he failed to mention was that she also had a child with Down Syndrome.

Having suffered all my life from various learning disabilities, that have both hindered my ability to succeed, yet also made me the person I am today…I have to agree that she just may be exactly what this country needs .

It takes a special person to raise a child with a disability, and there are so few people out there that are willing to do that.

If McCain and Gov. Palin can do at least one thing for this country, let it be to advocate for the needs of those who are unable to do so for themselves.

Unemployment

So everyone that I talked to when I lost my job said filing for unemployment was easy.

Ha!! Do they know who they are talking to?

I can turn even the simplest task into a long drawn out process. It seems like if it is going to happen to someone, it is almost always me who is going to have problems.

Anyway, here is the story... I was laid off on July 23rd and probably should have filed that day but I got busy, and actually didn't apply until the following week. So after the whole online application process, you're supposed to get a confirmation number. I don't know if it was something on my end or if it had something to do with the computers at the unemployment office but I DIDN'T get a confirmation number. All I got was a blank box where my only choice was to quit my application. So, that's what I did.

I then started a new application and this time after it was complete, I got my confirmation number and was told that I could call M.A.R.V.I.N on August 16th between 6-7 pm YAY!!! Right? .....Wrong! I called on August 16th and the automated system that they use at Marvin hung up on me! OK, fine whatever.....I'll call again tomorrow.

So, on Wednesday Aug 17th I call back and get hung up on again...saying we're sorry you are unable to register with Marvin until after August 25th. Ummm, OK....why is that?

So, I call the unemployment office again. This time they tell me that they have on record that I filled twice!!! So, I explain to them what happened when I first applied with the whole not getting a confirmation number....with me so far?

They tell me that they can fix it and it will be set back to the original date I was supposed to be approved. This way, I won't miss out on any of the money I should be getting....hopefully. To make an extremely long story kind of shorter....LoL, I finally got through to Marvin, and got everything sorted out yesterday.

Except that due to some new program that the government has going on, everything is taking longer than it should. They now have 5 weeks from the time I applied before they actually have to send my check out to me. This means that I may not get any money until after September 12th!!!!

At this rate, I'll be employed full time again before I even get my unemployment!