Writers block at it's finest

I know it has been a long time since I've posted but to be honest nothing new has happened, or at least nothing I want to write about.

This weekend is going to be very hectic. My birthday was on the 14th and I am having a huge party at my place on Saturday night. However, on Saturday afternoon we have our local LPA chapter meeting. I just don't have much time to spend on a long creative post right now.

Actually, I have been thinking about taking a break from blogging for a while because of some things that have happened over the last couple weeks regarding my blog. There are some people out there who saw a post I really did not want anyone see.

Even though I deleted the post, I guess I wasn't quick enough and word of mouth travels way to fast. Especially with the Internet!

I need some time to think and figure out what I want to do with this blog, and if I really want to continue divulging my personal life knowing that it could come back to haunt me. I will be back once things settle down for me...and I have something interesting to say!

GUESTBOOK!

PLEASE sign my Guestbook!

You do not have to post a picture, although it would be cool if you did! I would love to know who my readers are, and I promise my life is bound to get more exciting so keep coming back for more. =)

NEW JOB!

As some of you may have heard, I got a new job and I start on Tuesday! I will be working for a company called Wellsbrooke Premium Home Health Care as a Nursing Assistant/Caregiver.

After the orientation on Tuesday and Wednesday I will be assigned a case or possibly more than one case.

The company works with both Children and Adults who have varying degrees of chronic or terminal illnesses as well as persons in need of social or therapeutic treatment or just assistance with the essential activities of daily living.

Since I am going back to school for Nursing (Pediatrics eventually) this job puts me right where I want to be for success in the future. Wish me Luck!

GOT CONFIDENCE?

We all have times when we don't feel as confident as we probably should, but lately I have been feeling really low.

Way to many people have been testing my confidence level lately and with everything else that has been going on (job searching, money troubles, BOYS etc...) I just don't have it in me anymore.

Hopefully once I start this job I will get my act together and start feeling good about myself again, but right now I seem to be sinking lower and lower everyday and I just can't seem to find anything that truly makes me happy.

Temporary happiness, yes. Like yesterday, I went out with a whole bunch of friends to what we call the River Potluck. This was my first time going with them, and I had more fun than I've had in a really long time. We all brought something to share and ate at a table, in canoes in the middle of the Huron River. The food was excellent, and the company was even better!

Then I came home and realized that it was all over, and I would be going to bed...alone... once again. It's not that it is a bad thing to be alone sometimes, but when you love cuddling as much as I do, and you are already feeling pretty down...all you want to do is have someone close to you all night, to help you from thinking about anything bad.

Anyway, the real point of this post is that I had an audition today and after waking up, getting dressed, doing my hair, and putting on my make-up, I could not bring myself to go to the audition.

It has been 7 years since I have been on stage, and I have been so nervous for the last 2 weeks, preparing for this audition, for a play I was not even super excited about to begin with. Now I'm not even going! What's up with that!!!!

I don't know what's wrong with me lately but I need to get my shit together!!!